Silver Platter Service

Silver Platter Service.

Under these dark waves of reality

The tides pull consciousness apart

Seeming truths teaming with lies

Life is made for living

Dreams are made for escape

And nightmares are made to be survived

 

Movements perfected over time

Actions without reactions

The vibrations become deafening

Waves breaking upon a distant shore

Hungry eyes swallowing the light

Devouring the shameful pain of joy

Power is for those brave enough

Destiny is for those who believe in stuff

Forever is a comfort for the mortal

And fate can never be controlled

 

Confident self-destruction

Spending years writing

One endless suicide note

That no one

Will ever read

Searching for something

That never really existed

And a love that

Will never be enough

Satisfaction is for the weak

Turmoil bleeds from open wounds

Bruised flesh remains tender

When there is no escaping the past

 

Taught to be ungrateful

And taught from the start how to hate

First rules are learned

But soon they will be broken

Then broken again

Losing their meaning over time

 

Wisdom carved in stone

Reasons to writhe and moan

Out of step and lacking tone

After each and every broken bone

The truth is that no one

Is traveling this road alone

And there is no voice

On the other end of the phone

 

We scold the bold

For breaking the mold

And never doing

Exactly as they are told

Welcome to the fold

I promise this will get old

When all the dreams

Are bought and sold

By hearts that have gown

Jaded and cold

In hopes no one will grab hold

 

A warrior called to the fight

Slowly draining might

When shying away from the light

Embraced by the night

This is the one thing that has

Always felt right

With no end in sight

Life has been served on a silver platter

All we can do is try to get a bite

Before the feast comes to an end.

3/26/2013 7:48 AM

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OMG, Really?

Oh God, Really?

We all know my views in organized religion but I would like to put that aside for the moment because I genuinely want to know why god’s flock of sheep are still stuck on pointless battles like gay marriage or trying to disprove evolution. Would their time be better spent thinning out the idiots in their own camp who give them a bad name? The people who use god as excuse for hate or the people who go on reality shows and pray that god will help them win a million dollars or politicians who say that god told them to run for president. From where I sit, on the outside, I can’t even feel pity for any sane, rational religious folks that may be out there because they do not stand up for themselves on this. They just let it happen and it is embarrassing, frustrating and more than just a little amusing.

Most of all, why is no one offended that these WEBSITES claim to help you find god’s match for you? No one finds that to be presumptuous and a little bit insane? If I was a Christian, I would be wildly offended by the idea that god is speaking to me through a website or some power hungry politician or helping some asshole become a millionaire by treating other people like crap, lying and exploiting themselves on TV.  Stupidity offends me more than two people finding love or some girl who is not ready for parenthood taking steps not to be one through any means at their disposal.

If I believed in that book people say guides their lives I would want organize people to go after Westboro Baptist Church until they stop calling themselves a church. I would want to ask one of these politicians what the voice of god sounds like or when he took back the whole, meek inheriting the earth stance, because I thought that was one of the big ones. I am pretty sure that god has always been into people forking over any of their material wealth for a place in heaven. But what do I know, maybe now he wants you to “survive” on an island for a while to try to win a bunch of money. Once “judge not lest ye be judged” and “love thy neighbor” stopped mattering, I suppose the rest of it can be ignored now too. God doesn’t bother with miracles anymore because he is busy fixing people up and playing matchmaker online. Which also means he is not out there killing millions of children, spreading plagues and speaking to schizophrenic hippies anymore either. Which is nice of him and long overdue I would say.

While I may consider myself a pseudo-scientist or an atheist to use the more common term, it is because I like facts, I believe in evolution and see a brighter future in knowledge than I have seen in any church or religion that have ever existed. While I have on many occasions read the bible in many forms, I don’t really think I needed it to tell me right from wrong, after a while I would have figured it out on my own. If a person is only kind out of fear, guilt and shame then it is not really kindness at all is it? If you feel a light within you, why not own that instead of giving someone else credit? I am a good person because I chose to be, because it makes me feel good and because it is the way things are supposed to be.

If they could eventually redirect their hate and righteous indignation to battling the monsters within I could even find myself fighting with them. It is not that I am against the idea of faith, or those stories about some hippie schizophrenic spreading a message of love, kindness and understanding in the desert. Jesus seemed like a good enough guy but that message has been lost and distorted over time, clouded by hypocrisy, the will of mankind and traditional superstitions built on fear. If I have to face a higher power someday and answer for my actions in life I go confidently, unlike most that fear their god and doubt their actions instead of just enjoying it while it lasts.

The more I learn, the more I observe from the outside, the more I feel like humankind will always be hindered by the concept of god. When science makes this many advances in this short of a period of time, it become difficult to deny the impact. It makes me wonder how anyone can still let themselves be consumed by such outdated things like religion, how anyone could be so blind and willing to let such abject stupidity stand as the example for the whole flock. I wonder how people in modern times could not look back and realize it is time for a change. It is time to put the past behind us in favor of a dogma with a few less holes in it, a lot less death and maybe even a few facts instead of lies and mysterious, magic miracles that happened thousands of years ago.

As I get older I become more and more convinced that the closest I will ever come to that thing people search for with religion is when I am sitting on the beach at night, under the stars, listening to the waves and maybe smoking some natural herbs that had to have been god given because they exist. A loved one sitting next to me makes it all the more complete, all the more spiritual of an experience for me. This may be the wrong way to handle things in the long run but you are going to have a hard time convincing me of a better way if you are looking for gods match for you on a dating website. I found gods match for me when I wandered into a gas station drunk one night. You know, the old fashioned way. He and I took time to get to know each other and fall in love and that love is based on many more levels than just our religion or lack thereof. While I understand there needs to be common ground and common interests in a relationship, I wonder if religion still big enough or strong enough to be the only connection. Those shared values may be a good start but it seems like the opposites-attract saying must exist for a reason. Love needs mental stimulation as much as any other kind, life needs challenges to keep it worth living. Where is the adventure in following the expected path and never breaking from the mold?

Why would god want anyone to put something as important as that in the hands of web designers, advertising executives or chance? If you believed in him, why would you allow people like that to presume to speak for him or you, why does it seem perfectly okay for everyone to take the lords name in vein or worse? When will the puppets cut the strings and stop dancing to the same old tune? Stop fighting atheists and science and stop being so stubborn about progress and maybe admit to a few of the mistakes that have been made. I am fairly sure that science exists for more than disproving god’s existence so why not admit to the other side having a good idea now and then? Atheists do not hate people who worship the various gods, they just want to point out another side, some alternative ideas to consider. If they hate anything, I would say it is the length some people go to when arguing about god with non-believers, the stubborn blindness some people maintain so they never have to grow or change.

I can only speak for myself as an atheist but I think we could all work together if we were fighting a common enemy. We might even be able to solve a few of the greatest mysteries that neither side has been able to figure out along the way. If only we could bridge that great divide. To me, pimping out souls and capitalizing on love means that the monopoly on eternal life is finally up for grabs and it is time for science to take its turn defining, studying and proving all those things that religion tried to explain and dismiss with statements like, “because the bible says so.” If one side could allow that imaginary friends are possible and worth believing in maybe the other side could believe in things like dinosaurs existing or human rights. Then we can start working on the big issues if that works out.

Stupidity is one of the greatest of all sins, in this day and age there is really no logical excuse. Failure to try is the only real failure that counts in the end. Why not try to see the big picture from every angle there possibly could be? The only dumb questions  are the ones left unasked so why have all these questions gone unasked?

I have to admit, after writing all this I am curious about these sites. In the name of science I might go on an undercover fact finding mission. The hard part is deciding what part to play. Do I set it up as the biggest cliché ever, do I be an honest-ish me or do I go as dark and evil as possible to see how long it takes before I get banned from the site?

They all sound fun so maybe I will do one of each on multiple sites. It will be a good exercise, a way to build characters for stories. Even though I have my perfect match, I want to know what THEY think my perfect, god given match would be. In the end I may feel bad about playing games but I think it will be interesting to see what points of interest god uses when making a match for someone. If my honest-ish profile it will also be interesting to see how many open minded people are out there. I think that honest-ish profile will get shut down just as fast as a dark, evil character will because discrimination is alive and well in this world.

It is a good sign that my theory about these kinds of people is correct when the only options offered are man-looking-for-woman or woman-looking-for-a-man. I think this is going to be interesting and deserving of a day to day chronicle of the adventure as it progresses. We can call it my first attempt at investigative journalism.

3/21/2013 7:40 AM

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Eat the Swine Before They Eat You.

A quiet, snowy Sunday morning. Up too late, once again. Earlier I watched the blessedly last of the Twilight movies, it wasn’t bad to be honest. It did however make me want to spend the rest of the night drinking and re-watching people be brutally hacked to death on Spartacus while I work on some pulled pork for later tonight. Overall though, this combination of things has led me to spend a lot of the night thinking of cannibalism and how humans should eat their young like other animals do. It would just spare us all so many issues in the long run.

If it was not for my morbid interest in someday eating another human, I would possibly be able to become a vegetarian. I feel like the fact that I would eat those worthless humans who mistreat animals if given the chance gives me the leeway to still enjoy all the usual kinds of meat as often as I want. I do love animals and see both sides of the argument. When it comes down to it though, some animals seem to serve no other purpose than to be yummy. Chickens for instance. For all I know, human tastes like all my favorite foods. I won’t know until I try.

Ancient dwellers of this planet practiced cannibalism when they had to but there is really no record of anyone telling how it tasted or how they prepared and spiced the meat. Stranger things have happened to our sad, desperate species over the years. With all the end of the world scenarios being played out in our day and age, I get the feeling sometimes that we may all come to the point of eating each other just to survive someday.

No matter which road is taken, no matter if it is the idea of eating our enemies or eating the humans that serve no purpose on this planet, cannibalism will serve as a welcomed form of population control someday. Everyone is divided over “women issues” like rape, birth control and abortion, maybe this is how we can get them all to shut up and get on with their lives. When some white trash family, living off the government has their fourth or sixth kid, start making them eat the ones they can’t support. If you think this is a repulsive idea and you think I am a horrible person for saying so, think of the Octopi-Mom or that other reality show chick with eight kids or something. Since this country becomes more and more obsessed with people like that every day, maybe we can make a new reality show called “How fast can you rid the world of your demon spawn.” I think Casey Anthony and any parent of a kid who caused some schoolyard, gun related tragedy would make perfect judges for the show. I would say we could follow it with “Who wants to laugh at idiots, douchbags and retards.” But there are at least fifteen different versions of that show already out there.

I know it sounds harsh but all this live and let live, political correctness is what will eventually be the end of humanity as we know it. Once upon a time the philosophy was survival of the fittest but now it seems like survival of the shittiest has become the law of the land. After a while it has started to become obvious that this empire, like so many before it, is ready to crumble way and fade into history. When things like that take hold of your consciousness and society it gets harder and harder to take anything seriously. The more I learn, the more I want to know. But the more I learn, the more see patterns and shapes forming in the distance, some of them are intimidating, others I feel need to be destroyed immediately. Personal plans, dreams and goals feel the most vivid and real while the bigger picture always remains out of focus and surreal. When I say bigger picture, I mean the reality that everyone else seems to be more than happy to embrace and call true. It has left me on the outside looking in, always wondering, worrying and trying to find the right path for me, myself and I before it is too late.

While most women my age seem to want nothing more than a man who provides security, children and the same old expectations of normalcy, I sometimes wonder what the fuck is wrong with me, why am I constantly unsatisfied. I ask myself if I am missing something, if I am broken and most of all, who’s path in life is going to be the right one in the end. I have no choice to keep being the person I am and hope for the best. This life is short though and as much as I would like to, I know I can’t really manage to try everything at least once before I go. Death itself does not scare me, the idea that I had not seen or done enough, felt or experienced enough, dreamed big enough or lived loud enough is absolutely terrifying though. I go through great effort to convince myself that no one’s opinions matter but I also spend quite a bit of time trying to figure out why they think what they think or act the way they act. It might not be the healthiest way to look at things but most of the time I treat my fellow man like they are only here for my amusement, to keep me entertained. While this may sound cold and selfish, it does however give me the power to laugh at life and all the things it throws my way instead of crying about them. So I also spend more time than I should, wondering to myself about how this could be wrong when it feels so right. Being a human can be complex and exhausting, there is and always has been, far too much grey area where there are no rules. In those grey areas it becomes difficult to even save yourself in the battle with yourself. Questions like, who am I? Why am I here? Why do I even care or bother to go on, what is the point of all this? These are questions that I plague myself with on a regular basis. For every moment I spend observing and contemplating the world around me I spend five times that contemplating myself and where I fit in this world around me, what I want from this world around me and what I need from this reality that has been forced upon me.

 

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Functional Dis-function.

If I am ever going

To take things

Seriously

I need to start

Working furiously

And stop approaching

Things

So deliriously

But I always fall prey

To my own

Curiosity because

This leads me

To debate

Everything endlessly

While striving

For that perfect

Ecstasy

 

Sometimes

I take it too far

But it is

Just because I want

To be where you are

Because you will

Always be

The most

Far away and

Unreachable star

I will never win

This most personal

And endless war

 

Every page that

I have read

And every word

I have ever said

Will mean nothing

Once I am dead

But there is nothing

I would rather do instead

When I closed my eyes

Even though the

Road has been long

I have always tried to lead

While all the others

Have been content

Simply being led

People always think

That I somehow

Damaged my head

And that I

Have already made

My own final bed

But doubting me

Is the best way

To make me see red

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Keep Calm.

 

keepcalm

 

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Tanya Gomez

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Label: Septiva Sound!

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Alive for Now.

Alive for Now.

In the quietest of

Still moments

In the perfect silence

Between one breath

And the next

 

I become aware

That I am alive

 

When I watch

The dawn break

Like a wave

Over the darkness

And shadows

 

I take a moment

To remember

That I am alive

 

Sometimes when

A stranger

Bumps into me

Or our eyes lock

And we both smile

We see each other

In the reflection

Of another

 

And we tell the other

Without any words

That we are both alive

 

I let myself feel hunger

I let myself enjoy the pain

I loose myself in love

And sometimes

I take things too far

I say what no one

Ever dares to say

I laugh out loud

And I learn from

My mistakes

 

Because I need to feel

Alive

I don’t know any other way

To feel

Alive

 

It all comes crashing in

At the strangest of times

Taking hold of every

Fiber that creates

A reality that seems

So very real

While shaking the core

Of the heart

And the soul

With a simple truth

 

That

I am alive

 

It sneaks in

Unsuspected

And unexpected

But there is no way

To deny

Or stop the progression

Once the journey

Has been started

There are more emotions

And feelings to be felt

 

Because

This is what it means

To live and to be

Alive

 

As much as it seems

Like this should be

A comfort

Or that this thought

Should bring security

 

It can be scary to face

The knowledge that

Our stories end the same

And all

We need to learn

Is how to finally live

Like we are

Really alive

2/6/2013 10:30 AM

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